im a kid in a grown up world
it has certainly been ages since my last post. i actually already forgot i had a blog. well, here i am, revisiting the many memories kept safely in the previous posts.
i can’t help but miss the old days. it’s so different now. i can’t say life was better then. life is really good now, too. but looking back, i kind of think time had passed too quickly. i’m more than halfway through college when high school still seems like yesterday.
i miss wearing my uniform. i miss sitting on the floor with friends waiting for the guard to call my name. i miss my friends.
now, we’re on different paths. hopefully, we’re all on the track we’re supposed to be on. hopefully, we’re all truly happy. some of us will become nurses soon. some will study more to become doctors. some, engineers, architects, business people, artists, etcetera. it’s amazing how we all were simply praying so hard to pass algebra or filipino.
this is now. we are changed individuals. we need to be more responsible, independent, serious, smart…there are so many things we are already capable of doing by ourselves. it’s crazy. but God knows how we’d long to go back to when we can be dependent, irresponsible, incapable, carefree and ignorant…because then, there wasn’t much we needed to think about…nor had we so much to look back on and miss. we had our whole lives ahead of us…now, we’re tasting life bit by bit. every choice is tied with greater consequences. every mistake creates larger dents. every fall hurts so, so much more. we actually already have to think for our future because it’s coming very soon…and it isn’t just ‘okay, i’ll settle with this for now until i can really decide’ anymore. we have to make serious life decisions…by ourselves!
but how am i supposed to do that when choosing between a green or purple pen is already hard enough? sigh, i miss how i could put myself in the unthinkingness state. being alone in my room makes me think too much!
