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oops. five ‘happy losers’ are actually posted on my blog. shox, kaloser nko oie! bwahaha.

hai, i don’t know whether i should be sad or happy, crazy or calm, hyper or tired!whoo. my plipax mind can’t think straight. this is too complicated. haha! it’s may 11. my superduper guy (char!) left for manila today. i thought i’d see him at the airport, but i didn’t. haha. i wished i would. God knows how one particular person actually prayed for our meeting. gosh, apilon lagi ang wind! haha. it’s raining, although it’s still summer. this is a sign, really. i know these drops are his tears. he misses me too much. i don’t just think it, i know it! (ah, murag unsa!haha) it’s either that or he’s crying because of the bruises and scratches we’ve caused him. haha…unintentionally. but no, that couldn’t be…he’s not chuva..so i don’t think he’d cry over itsy bitsy teeny weeny little yayay’s.hahaha.

hai…the house is quiet now. i’m not particularly liking it…the silence is deafening. i guess my ears adapted to the noise before…and while my eardrums expanded willingly then, they aren’t shrinking fast enough now. haha. i actually enjoy watching pbb when other plipax people get kilig with me. good for those whose lolos chikka..haha. anyhow, i didn’t get too sad from their departure. i had better things to do than frown. my thumb was busy typing tan tanan’s on my phone…and well, my mind was too confused whether those tan tanan’s which were sent to me were to be processed. hahaha. who would have known guessing tunes would actually be so very, very, very disturbing! joke. haha.

i’m glad i made it through this day. my hopes went up and down several times…and i’m glad it’s zero now..at least it’s stable.haha. there’s nothing to be sad about though. i’m contented with breathing the same air and stepping on the same grounds with him for one day. the thought that we aren’t too far way from each other…didn’t contribute to the happy feeling (haha.)…but of course, it adds to the drama.."we were so near…yet so far…(stare at stars)" haha!:) toink. oops, i think i just made him stumble again. haha. maybe i’ll never see him sing again. probably, i’d never even see him ever again. so what, dreaming isn’t so bad. after all, i make the endings of my fairytales. that case, i can go see his concert for free…front row seat pa jud! then, there’ll be dinners and blah blah blah…:) haha…ay, i’ll be bringing someone along diay in case i go a-fainting! haha.:)

gosh, when will this rain ever stop. i wish it will soon, or else there will be too much muta to handle. eek, major turn off! haha.

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